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I have been apologising! I've said I'm sorry and I'm trying to do shit to fix it, what else do you want?

I'll admit, I am curious to know whether you can actually get through an apology without amending it, but, even grading on a scale, you haven't done the latter at all.

Because you won't tell me what you want me to do to fix it, and apparently all the ideas I thought of on my own are selfish.

[ Places both hands over her face. ]

This is exactly what I meant- nobody can get you to do anything. It's like an ant trying to apologise to someone- you don't give enough of a shit about any of us for it to matter at all. This is probably just- more fucking entertainment for you.

I've already told you. There isn't anything you can do to "fix it." It's just something that happened, and nothing can make it unhappen.

[a pause]

I could tell you that I accept your apology. And it would mean just as much as your apologies do. Nothing.

They don't mean nothing to me, and I'm not trying to un-happen it.

[ Hands still on her face, looking through her fingers directly upwards. ]

Okay. I fucking hate you. I meant to hurt you because I thought we'd benefit from it. You've given me very little reason to give a shit about you beyond Skulduggery's sake and what benefit helping you can bring to the rest of us. I'm not a good person. But I'm trying to set things right anyway. I don't want to be cruel anymore, even to people I hate.

[a pause]

Now. Was that so hard?

Yes, it really was.

[ But hey, it's still a start. ]

It's all you had to do this entire time. Be honest about your intentions - especially with yourself.

[ If one more adult tries to teach her a bullshit obtuse lesson like this, she'll be convinced she's trapped in a fucking after-school special. ]

Okay. Now what.