You would've torn this reality apart if he hadn't come back and we both know it. Don't act like you're better than me because you care about less shit. Nothing that lives, lives alone or for itself.
If he hadn't come back, I would have ended all of this the only way it ever could end without him. [pause] It is rather the same result, though, isn't it. For the rest of you.
[ For all the similarities that both had been loosely tossing at each other over the course of this argument, this is the first one that's really stuck in her. She thinks to the Captain refusing to kill her, over and over, and there's... something that sticks in her throat about it. Darcy crushes the impulse to touch at the scar that remains over her heart. ]
He wouldn't have wanted you to. He believes in happy endings. It's annoying.
The magic nerd ritual bullshit wasn't usually left up to me. Back home I mostly did a lot of punching the shit out of things. Guess we've both got shit to learn.
So imagine what it'll be like for things bigger than just not murdering people for a couple of hours. Weirdly, the harder you work at something, the more rewarding it is when you succeed at it.
Literally like more than half of the books in the library follow the same pattern of 'someone struggles to do a thing and then succeeds in doing a thing', dude, [ she presumes, ] honest to God, it does.
So when you made this reality, you skipped plumbing or an actual sea floor or weather that changes, but you specifically wrote into the coding 'hard work does not pay off into any real reward'. Specifically. You put that in here specifically.
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tw: suicidal ideation
If he hadn't come back, I would have ended all of this the only way it ever could end without him. [pause] It is rather the same result, though, isn't it. For the rest of you.
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He wouldn't have wanted you to. He believes in happy endings. It's annoying.
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... It is quite annoying.
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Deep breath, ] Please don't die.
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I've managed that passably well the past few thousand years. What's a few thousand more.
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[ Shifts how she's sitting, ] I'm still mad at you for how you handled it. But I don't like, hate you.
[ Not like she used to. ]
Before you say it, I know you don't care.
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You'd think you, of all people, would understand the necessity of ritual.
[nailed it.]
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The magic nerd ritual bullshit wasn't usually left up to me. Back home I mostly did a lot of punching the shit out of things. Guess we've both got shit to learn.
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The joy of doing shit specifically because people think you can't, or shouldn't be able to.
[ And other shit like 'compassion', but nothing else she can think of that he wouldn't outright mock her over. ]
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[not-not sulking.]
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You mean my library of fiction.
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[ Shrug, ] Seems like a really easy thing to prove me wrong about.
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Is this what success looks like.
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